make me sick....

entry like what???????
i don't have any idea lately but i really intense in doing thing in make up...
i mean make up in my way.....
my style of make up is quite weird cause i not follow rule like a real make-up artist...
lately i start learning and apply how to make up properly...this really interesting
i wanna share some of the tips i use and apply in daily life cause i really affected with the make-up thing and so over....
so after this my post will related more to this thing...what thing?????
stop make me sick.....

wanna some idea....

lately,really malazzz to update blog....i just dont have any idea to inspire me anymore to write...you know,when things start being simple we will become like a useless creature in the world...what i alwayyzz do is tv,online,novel,comic,game....ugh.....

did have some time.....

holiday now at home..make me have a very loooooot of freeeee time.
yeah,bored make me read all the old comics book i have....feel young again when i read all the comic.....i can remember how hard i want to buy a comic book back then,when i was kid(mestilah mase kecik)

here some trivia about my comic life:

1. start read comic at age 10 (standard 4 tuwww)
2. my one and only brother introduce comic book to me
3. first comic i had read was Detective Conan vol.1
4. buy comic secretly from parent(takut kena marah)
5. sooo miskin mase tu,duit g skool 0.50 cents only kena ikat perut sbab komik
6. after a year with conan i was meet komik remaja
7. need to ikat perut more.....
8. as time goes by,shelf full with comic
9. parent give their blessing for us to read comic and support us with a money of course
10. all my siblings addict to comic start i was 13 till now....
11. my bro and i stop buying a comic now,our younger generation takes place
12. really obses and really want go to japan because of comic
13. hate malaysian comic that "ciplak" japan comic (hey,try came with ur own ideas)
14. parent support us more now because their realize one thing,with comic we became a very good child that did not go 'merayau-rayau' and easy to get culture shock because we really stick wit our comic 'pegangan' 

thah is some of trivia about my comic life...nonsense isn't it,but i love it really love it

mampuih la.....

i know my first result already.....it was suck.......erghhhhh.....................wanna puke....depressed....
i didn't get A...it just B+....waaaaaa...waaaa...waaa.......habis ler pointer aq......x leh nak bertenang tulis dlm english da...otak dah cramp....kalo sume result teruk...x leh la nak dpt dekan...melayang impian......huhhuhuhuhuhuhuhu 

in my mind....

well,going home and totally be my old self.....makan tido online main game komik movie......ugh...like a useless person...BTW,it doesn't matter.uuuooooaallss know la,when i'm at u,a lot of xtvt need to study assigment...i'm not use to all the thing.....

HELLo....this is my first semester ok....normal la if i can't get into a campus life....

what the thind taht i'm saying just now....

whatever it is....i really did not know what i need to wrote in blog for this few day...

adios.......

home is.....

well,quite some time did not post in blog...some how did not have any mood to write anything.
not a weeks i'm came back home it already make me sick...

sick of WHAT???
            got nothing to do...really bored and didn't know how to make my life more joyfull....

when i post in my FB bout this...
lots people comment like

1. go find some works.
2. sleep and eat
3. skodeng orang mandi (x paham nape kena skodeng,btw ni cadangan kengkawan aku)
4. tengok tv 
5. balik UPM untuk buang masa (crazy enough)

all,the opinion thank....

frankly i really bored and want something to do....

as uooallsss know,i'm a good girl....so i hate hang out with my friend or kluar lepak-lepak (lagipown mak i x bagi la "anak dara x yah kuar rumah lama-lama" katanya)

so...all i can do is stay at home and online.....

errrr,is this life?????

when you feel.......

when u feel lazy to study.....u just online without care your book

when u feel want go to sleep....u just sleep

when u feel life is empty...u try find something fun

when u feel u in trouble....u try find a solution

when u feel the world end for u...u wanna die

why
      why
            why

u didn't find Allah....it much easier than what u think

ShouLD finD one ENGginer riGht now!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why you should marry an Engineer Let me tell you why girls should eventually marry an engineer over a Law, Management, Arts or Medical School Graduate. He has three distinct advantages over the rest of the graduates.

Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle

An engineer boyfriend can provide you with a secure lifestyle. At 27 years old, an engineer probably has a respectable, stable job that gives him a high income to own a car, invest, have a comfortable life, and get married and buy a house too.

Law graduates are still working as a lowly apprentice in law firm.

Most management graduates have just failed on their first business plan.

The arts graduate is still looking for a job.

And the medical school graduate is still living in a hospital.

Advantage 2: Unmatchable industriousness

An engineer boyfriend will dedicate an unimaginable amount of his time and effort to understand you. Engineers strain really really hard to understand their work. You can believe that they will try really really hard to understand women too, just like how they understand their work, once they believe that you are the one. So even if they don't understand you initially, they will keep on trying. Even if they still do not understand, they will figure out the correct method to keep you happy (e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week's worth of happiness.) And once they find out the secret formula, they will just keep on repeating it so that the desired results appear.

Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with you.

The Management graduate who will try to control your spending, The Arts graduate who will 'change major'.

And the medical school graduate who will operate on you.

And you know what, it's really so easy to make engineer s believe that You are the 'one'. Say that you like one of their project and they will be hooked to you forever.

Advantage 3: An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust.

Let me first tell you what is wrong with the rest of the others - The lawyers will lie about everything.

Management graduates will cheat your money.

The arts graduate will flirt, and you probably just look like another cadaver to the medical school graduate.

Your engineer boyfriend is either too busy to have an affair, and even if he does, he is too dumb to lie to you about that. Hence, an engineer is the most secure boyfriend that you will ever find - rich enough, will keep on trying to understand and please you, has no time for affairs, and too dumb to lie to you. plus they r cooler than the others 

all women want...

clear, flawless skin
perfect S-shape body
crystal eyes
soft,waving hair

it all women in the world want..to get things like this is really not easy...
so do i,try to do and spend lot lot lot lot lot lot lot lot lot lot lot of money to became pretty...
if men ask why so wonder to became pretty, 'hello,u guys love pretty women' that just one of the reasons.
the truth is,we want became pretty to get attention from world
to became famous
to get a higher confident level

well,most of women just want to be pretty,
it not the matter of skin color or
eye color or
height or
type of your hair

it just pretty as you is important...

cliché?????????

it's a normal thing when student came out from exam hall with sad feeling, depressed and tension....

but today i came out from exam hall with smile on my face,and laugh with my friend...
not that i can answer all question but all of us can't answer the question...

you must answer 12 essay question within 2 hour....insane..

that simply happen to us....feel like crazy
god please help us........................

TITAS loVe YA...

love ya love ya love ya...

just like SS501 song,love ya...

i love TITAS that just final a moment ago...
why???

you ask me why???
       you ask me why!!!!!!!!!!!!!
              you ask me whyy!!!!!!!!!!

actually i can answer it,fluently,without any tangle 'guna jari pown boley'
like pantene said....

hahaha....

whew...such in good mood...reallly love bebel bebel at my lovely blog..such can tell all the thing in my heart...

hopefully all my final like titas...

put me in such g@@d m@@d

end of my life....

hmmm,entry for today seem bored like usual....
most important need to apologize to all the subject first...
why i thnk final is something horrible for me???

• study week turns to internet weeks
• books is no no
• movie almost all the times
• sleep as long as u want...

it's not weird if...

i didn't want to say it...

warghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........ :(

what a stupid human being!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ni lah dia kalau orang tahu je semayang tak tahu hukum..kau tahu tak kalau orang tengah tidur kau tak boleh memekak..sakit hati gila. macam haram jek. aku nak study lah pagi2 bute esok..bangang lah..

p/s: ni lah dia bile aku dah tunjuk sifat passive agressive aku kat public kan.just shut your fucking irritating lame damn mouth lah.malam2 bute nak buat aku maki kan..dah aku lak yang macam jahat sebab maki korang kan (from my FB frenz status)
Iera Marican likes this like like like like


well past 1 o'clock now...i'm already sleep before this.but somehow 'terjaga' cause of my beloved roomate who had sing and have a chit chat so so so so so so loud in middle of the night.WHAT THE HELL ACTUALLY!!!! i just want a peace full sleep.i never ever make a noise when they OTW to sleep why they can't make a same thing to me.really really really make me sick...oh god!!! help........can't endure this anymore...for one semester endure this,i had enough.didn't want to make a worse scene where there a people who die because i kill them....behave ok....we live in large community..if i try to tolerate with you guys try to tolerate with me...just when i sleep is enough....i try to be a good roomate here but you guys simply fucking me out all this thing....really wanna kill someone now...

it's time to....

well,it time to start believing that i can be like my 'old me'.which really struggle for study.stay up until 3 a.m to reading a book.make an mind map,short note,find extras fact in internet and etc...
what the great me.if i be like that at UPM.it's not weird if i got 4 flat.it easy..we study really easy actually,half from SPM subject and not a complicated topic.so,there is no reasons for me to not score in this sem. i know the time had came for me to start being just like me in the oldest day...GooD LUCK for ME........

long time not.....

quite some time i didn't wrote.well need time to have an idea.now got some idea 'bout study week in u.well when it came to study week there is percentage of this :

• 45% student go home
• 25% student in honeymoon mood
• 15% student go for holiday 
• 10% student waste their time just like that
• 5% student study for their final

well,the research give a very bad result for study,but this what student mean.....

nice thing....

tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but out of all that thing,i really happy. theater that i involve was quite success i think. it was a great feeling when i can all out in front of stage. show people what we want they saw.it such a great time...really love being in front of people on stage.well, it little embarrassed after show,you know when people say "hey,you the one act before this" all i can do is smile.....  

a poem to all...

roses are red,violets are blue, that is all they said,but it is all wrong, roses are red,so do apple, but violet are violet, violet aren't blue, orange are orange, Greenland never green, grasshopper maybe green, banana not always yellow, and what the hell i'm doing!!!!

sick again....

well,quite a bit time i didn't blogging.little busy,do this and that.most important is,final exam is around a corner....3 weeks more maybe.i didn't any revision yet.ahhh....don't mind bout that.what important right now is i really sick...seriously..it going be critical in any time....pardon...you all want to know i'm sick bout what???? it just because all the assignment,presentation, practices and lot of other stuff.I want a quite easy,simple life.but it not what i get right now.please.....i wanna rest and relax..............................(almost die cause tired)

poking around....

it's quite irritating when we got poke.some kind feel that person is so nosy...

what a video???

well,i have a great weekend actually.with a great english night.i need to say sorry to mr.saiful..."i'm sorry".i had give a terrible speach.i not prepare anything actually,i great i didn't numb in front of people(a lot of practice talk infront of people i though,in BM).but what i want say is i had found something GREAT? in youtube...i think i should share this...quite funny...didn't know what to say in front all people can keep mumbling...    link for the video....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r56jqb-fWVM

victory n loser

the great thing in life when u get a victory over something...the sad sad sad sad thing in life if we lose to something that we really want.....but the real great great great great thing in life is when we know why we lose for that time and stop doing that mistake...isn't?????

shoot,run,kill

all thing that we need when we play paintball...so much fun playing paintball even though for my first time...reallly worthy my RM30.00 spend for 3 game....

killing yourself in front of people...........

what i want to say is only one thing....i hate last night event...it totally killing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

talking,chatting.mumbling,speech.......

bla,bla,bla,bla,.......everyday we speak...almost every second......but how come we cant't speak properly...arghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i only know how to speak confidently in bahasa. english????not so into me...but i try...like today.need to debate.yeah i'm use to debate but in bahasa...once it come to english i can feel the burden of not knowing so much vocabulary,fright of making mistake and more....but i simply didn't care 'bout all of that and still go on with my stand...well i speak quite well in front of people....how to improve this skill????  

prove it wrong!!!!!!

well.....i have read something that make me thinking......i hate that story actually....why???easy i just disagree with the theme still i read it cause it my habit to finish something after i read it....you can judge it yourself.....

"When I was six years old I met him in the playground and he came up to me with a daisy, just the one, and knelt on both knees and asked me to marry him. So I pushed him over then ran away. Two days later he came over and asked if he could play cops and robbers with me and from that day on we played everyday.

At 11 on my first day of Secondary school I was so nervous but at lunch time he came to find me, and we sat down and ate lunch together. We did this everyday for an entire year. You were the first person I told about everything, about my crushes, about my lessons and about all the people I hated, and when I was 13 and thought I was the only one who had never been kissed, you offered to show me how, and by the tree in your backgarden we shared our first kiss.

At 15 we went to our first proper house party, and I got drunk. Even though I made a fool of myself you were there to help me stand strong. You didnt judge and you didnt make fun.

Over the next year we began to seperate, made different friends. I got my first serious boyfriend and you went through quite a few girlfriends. And then it got to May and that meant the prom. Everything had been arranged, I'd been getting my outfit for months and then the day before I found out my boyfriend had cheated on me. The first person I turned to was you. You turned up at my door with a bouquet of roses and a vintage 1950's car.

I laughed that night
I cried that night

We had three glorious yars together, when everyday I would smile. Even on the last when your mother stood up, in the church infornt of your coffin and began reading from your diary:

"I saw you when I was six stood by the bench in a blue checked dress and daisy shoes and I needed to give an other daisy just because.... Becuase i loved you from that day on"

His wedding vows written the day after prom, that I will never get to hear."

oh my!!!!!

well,my body start dying now....i just come back from camping....tired like hell actually.but the camp was great.so fun and give me very very very memorable experience,love that moment...come back to reality now....i just realize that so much thing i need to do and remember.oh my god.....help me again and again please,i hate test....it make me got BRAIN-ACHE....

inSane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lately,there is too much to handle...i can't focus.there only one me...how can i manage sooooooooo many thing....class at morning till late of afternoon.meeting and theater practices at night.get at room by 12 a.m then start to do assignment and revision for exam....ohhhhh.....not that i hate all this thing...but please give me a break to have a proper time to took care my skin,i really want go to spa,get a massage and have a nice hair treatment. hope can handle all the thing before i start behave like living corpse..     

nothing much than...

well,my world start as usual.go to lecture that i hate.finish an assignment and do other things.what great...i got lot lot lot of money right now......hahahahaha,feel great isn't.i just feel can do anything cause i got money now.well, my schedule right now,totally pack,what the #*$%!!! i' totally dying

whewww.....

well,its stars to be busy now....and i quite sure that i will not posting anything in this raya.why??? i'm being busy.i have to do lot of thing because it is raya.so don't worry after raya i will start blogging like normal though i knew there will be lot to do.hmmm.....simply didn't care.....

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL!!!!

smile makes me....

a great life for  week.

1. overnight at KL with friends
2. shopping with family
3. finished assignment
4. fully watched 2 drama and 1 movie
5. get 3 box of domino for free
6. download top 10 billboard song
7. re-act TWILIGHT and make it to gay vampire
8. hanging out with my really good friend
9. skip one of my class
10.  get a really proper rest

with all this thing happen,how could i say this...hmmmm.....FANTASTIC!!!!!!!

love complex.....

more thing i know,heard and see 'bout love make me feel so grateful that i not in love or liking someone.Love Is Sick...so many problem related to it.let i list the problem related to love;

1. jealousy
2. thinking to much 'bout it
3. time management
4. stress
5. friends
6. hearth-ache
7. compatibility

actually there is more and more problem related to love,but i just didn't know how to express it in proper way.so up there is some of it....

yeah..love is something that almost everybody want,but for me let it came naturally...we don't have to care or search it too much.just be yourself and relax....

giving something....

well...it's quiet hard for me to give something to someone else,but for some reasons i feel want to give something (more to belanja orang lain la).so all the kangkung that i harvest today i will eat it with my classmate...hmmm,a new experience though.

why crying?????

well,i just search video in youtube 'bout super junior and at their concert heechul-shii was crying really hard.

Super Junior 3rd album promo-sorry sorry (now they had their 4th album-BONAMANA)

OMG!!!!it really shock me,and the reasons for him crying is unknown....emmm..... crying is really something strange.why i say like this...look when we sad we cry..happy we cry and sometimes angry we also cry...how tears form actually,in biology from what i learn tears will form when our brain got a stimuli from what we feel,brain will send signal to our eye gland and mineral in eye gland will starts to fill up the eye and when it too much of it..it will become tear that falling down and that we called cry.owh what the nonsense i was talking right now...forget about that.what i wonder is only how we feel so sad and crying really hard..erghhh.........i can't think about that (had i lost my sense?????)

just realize some......

well,after i start blogging realize something (after i took a look at other blogs) everybody have their hidden side in their self and sometime we can see it through their blog.me????i'm not really sure if i got hidden side in myself,maybe.whatever it is,hidden self is not something bad and release it on blog is a good thing compare to you suddenly being nut....

paDDy fielD....

"nasi lemak,nasi ayam,nasi beriani...." all so nice...when we start to eats we start to eat more and more.but do we know how to produce rice that we eat more and more...owh.......it really hard actually start from the seed untill it grow.oh god...who knew that i will do all the thing.luckily my course here make me do that.i quiet sure this is my first and last time in my entire life to go into the "sawah".ERGHHHHHH!!!!! i really need go to the spa after go into the "sawah',especially for my nail.i want do a manicure....but, i got few thing that i will remember till forever;

1. i go into the "sawah"
2. i plant a paddy
3. i sacrifice my skin and nail to get into the "sawah"
4. i drive a thing called 'kabota' (i didn't know it real name)
5. i really impressive with all people that work in "sawah"
6. i gonna appreciate to all the petani now!!!!

One thing that i know is,i realize that tagline 'Sebutir Beras Ibarat Setitik Peluh Petani' is really cool.......  

MISERY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yeah
Oh yeah
So scared of breaking it
But you won't let it bend
And I wrote two hundred letters
I won't ever send
Somehow it is cut so much
Deeper then they seem
You'd rather cover up
I'd rather let them be
So let me be
And I'll set you free
[CHORUS]
I am in misery
There ain't no other
Who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
Your silence is slowly killing me
Girl you really got me bad
You really got me bad
I'm gonna get you back
Gonna get you back
Your salty skin and how
It mixes in with mine
The way it feels to be
Completely intertwined
It's not that I didn't care
It's that I didn't know
It's not what I didn't feel,
It's what I didn't show
So let me be
And I'll set you free
[CHORUS]
I am in misery
There ain't no other
Who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
Your silence is slowly killing me
Girl you really got me bad
You really got me bad
I'm gonna get you back
Gonna get you back
Say your faith is shaken
You may be mistaken
You keep me wide awake and
Waiting for the sun
I'm desperate and confused
So far away from you
I'm getting here
Don't care where I have to go
Why do you do what you do to me, yeah
Why won't you answer me, answer me yeah
Why do you do what you do to me yeah
Why won't you answer me, answer me yeah
[CHORUS]
I am in misery
There ain't no other
Who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
Your silence is slowly killing me
Girl you really got me bad
You really got me bad
I'm gonna get you back
Gonna get you back

nice song with nice video clip...what a great song to hear everyday and everytime....
start to love this song...Maroon 5 never disappoint me.This love never ending and i never go home without you is the best ever thing to remember.i'm quiet sure all girl will harder to breath when saw lead vocal of this group,Adam Levine at sunday morning.Ahhhh.....what a nice day with the sun and hundred of secret to share but there not enough time, nothing last forever...Well,i get a wake up call with the fresh air and it makes me wonder if life is a story that will have a sad ending,something that everyone want to avoid.sorry,i just can't stop mumble right now,but you can continue reading because just take little of your time.How i can get back in my life with all the problem though i don't know nothing about this life.what the hard world,this totally makes me MISERY.just a feeling of me that make me realize that i'm still human.please give me a little more time to rest.i simply didn't get enough sleep this day.this totally makes me stutter and wanna runaway to another galaxy.so,for a conclusion i will never gonna leave this bed for this weekend.goodnight,goodnight.....

What da HECK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In life there few things that i seriously want :

        1-MONEY

        2-HAPPINESS     

        3-FRIEND

        4-FAME                             

But, to achieve all the things is really hard.

Why????

How could i do all other thing when i study...Of course i have to make sure i got a good pointer right.(World now day always look at academic achievement;nonsense).But the good thing is,i got friend.The bad thing is,i don't have MONEY which is so important to me.....

No money make my desire to life more less......

Fool GArden_Lemon Tree...

I wonder how,
i wonder why,
yesterday tou told me 'bout the blue-blue sky,
but all that i can see i just a yellow lemon tree....

A very nice song to me...i realy love this song actually..and i already sing and record it(even is my voice is quite similar to monster).But i enjoy this.it make me feel batter.i dont think in life we must follow and be somebody else.enough be ourself

the golden era begin...

First thing to said i create a blog just for my satisfaction actually.....you guys don't need to consider to much about what i will post in my blog.it more to my hobbies actually...Well hope we can share an opinion...